Wrath

Relationships these days are ended in a myriad of ways,text,facebook,etc.General​ly those are used for boyfriends and girlfriends,and we all gasp at the inhumanity. How about An 11 year marriage,where there was no single act,no crux,no discernible point or reason.but no text,no e-mail,no notice in the paper,just nothing.because the people invilved were 7000 miles apart,silence was absolutely deadly. 13 years,2
children,a whole life of UPs and of course downs,met with a deadly silence.indefensible,insur​mountable. 8 months go by,I am still as fucking clueless as I was then,of course then I put it down to stubborness,but as time has passed by,there is something else at work,and it is so negaive in nature,I cannot Speak about it.over the years people have good times and bad,people that know me,know I have always tried to keep a positive spin on shit,and until the day I die,I will never curse the mother of my children,I just wish I knew what I did to provoke such wrath


Sometimes I wonder if there is a difference if they had all died a horrific car crash,but of course I know there is a difference,although lost to me forever,at least I know they are okaY,they continue,they go on.It works vice-versa also,and I think it would be easier for them if they didn't know I carried on,surely it would be better if I didn't exist.don't take that the wrong way,I am too cowardly for anything so drastic,naturally life will soon catch up with me anyway.