Days gone by

Razor-every song tells a story.

Comfortably numb

Hijacked blog?

Just annoyingly found out that my blog was being redirected to blogrolling.com, making reading the blog impossible. I found the offending html code and removed it.Seems to be okay now. If you are having the same problem, look for anything containing blogroller and delete from your 'design'.

William Shakespeare - To be, or not to be (from Hamlet 3/1)

To be, or not to be: that is the question:
Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer
The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune,
Or to take arms against a sea of troubles,
And by opposing end them? To die: to sleep;
No more; and by a sleep to say we end
The heart-ache and the thousand natural shocks
That flesh is heir to, 'tis a consummation
Devoutly to be wish'd. To die, to sleep;
To sleep: perchance to dream: ay, there's the rub;
For in that sleep of death what dreams may come
When we have shuffled off this mortal coil,
Must give us pause: there's the respect
That makes calamity of so long life;
For who would bear the whips and scorns of time,
The oppressor's wrong, the proud man's contumely,
The pangs of despised love, the law's delay,
The insolence of office and the spurns
That patient merit of the unworthy takes,
When he himself might his quietus make
With a bare bodkin? who would fardels bear,
To grunt and sweat under a weary life,
But that the dread of something after death,
The undiscover'd country from whose bourn
No traveller returns, puzzles the will
And makes us rather bear those ills we have
Than fly to others that we know not of?
Thus conscience does make cowards of us all;
And thus the native hue of resolution
Is sicklied o'er with the pale cast of thought,
And enterprises of great pith and moment
With this regard their currents turn awry,
And lose the name of action. - Soft you now!
The fair Ophelia! Nymph, in thy orisons
Be all my sins remember'd.

Purple Rain

Weird dream last night,me and the artist formerly known as Prince,now known as Prince,were on the run in Liverpool.We were chased out of this bloke strangely enough wearing a tracksuit's house! Running away to the tune of Purple Rain.The bloke chasing us was on a bike,but strangely, even though we were not running that fast,as we were running in time to the song he couldn't catch us.

Even though Prince being considerably shorter than me, kept ahead of me somehow,the fella on the bike would occassionaly pass me but didn't stop me as he was really after Prince,I kept running anyway!

As we ran through the streets of Liverpool,people would say "arrite Prince lad?" I kept on hoping he would shout back "arrite Queen?'(In the dream)

As we kept on I started to pray that this wasn't going to be some 12' remix version of Purple Rain as I was knackered! Along the way we also started to discuss a 'Scouser's Charter' a bit like a human right's act for Liverpool..Most of the clauses I won't go into but the first one was to be freely able to wear a tracksuit or replica kit at all times,the second was for your skin colour to be a weird shade of orange. I hadn't quite finished the rest, involving working on the side and the Beatles and football,when my neighbour decided to knock down every wall in his flat!

FOOT (!!!) massage

There must have been quite a few 'misunderstandings; in the past! (Sign outside a FOOT massage place in Wanchai)

Mui Wo music festival 2011

Riots hit Birkenhead.

People should avoid Birkenhead police say, that's what I have been saying to my estranged wife for 5 years!

RT @LivEchonews Four arrests in Birkenhead after 100 youths gathered committing criminal damage. Businesses inc McDonald's smashed #liverpoolriots

Also cars reported burning in Birkenhead

Great place to raise(my) kids!!

Riots spread to liverpool

There were reports of cars being damaged in Manchester and of up to 200 youths with masks roaming through Toxteth in Liverpool.

Merseyside police said they were dealing with a number of incidents in south Liverpool, including cars being set alight.

• Cars were set on fire in Lewisham
• A bus and shop were set alight in Peckham
• Several fires broke out in Croydon, including one at a large furniture shop which spread to neighbouring buildings and tram lines
• In Hackney 200 riot officers with dogs and mounted police were located around Mare Street where police cars were damaged
• Looters raided a Debenhams store and a row of shops in Lavender Hill in Clapham
• In Birmingham, police said officers had made 87 arrests, including six juveniles, on Monday evening
• Buses were diverted as the violence spread to Bromley High Street
• There were reports of looting of phone shops in Woolwich High Street, in south London, and a torched police car
• Shops and restaurants were damaged in Ealing, west London, and there was a fire in Haven Green park opposite Ealing Broadway Tube
• Football matches at Charlton and West Ham which were due to be played on Tuesday have been postponed at the request of the police
• At Clapham Junction looters stole masks from a fancy dress store to hide their identity

London burns

Burning

Lonodon is burning!

Laughing

on the ferry, I can hear a very happy baby laughing and laughing,I love it,it makes me laugh,the baby is nearly two years old,and and I can't help but laugh,this is possibly the best sound in the world.
But at the same time it stabs me in the heart,I remember every single laugh and giggle and kiss from my own boys,and it takes my breath away

Sunlight hurts my eyes.

Hurt

Old friends

Met an old friend tonight, an Indonesian girl, she was with her German husband and her 2 beautiful children. She used to come on days out with her ex-boyfriend and join us for BBQs at the beach. She pulled out a photo of her with my eldest son when he was a baby.It was laminated and cut around so it really was only of her and my son.
She was a lovely girl, and she doted on our kids, my heart broke when I saw the picture, she had it there, in her wallet. 8 years later.

Wrath

Relationships these days are ended in a myriad of ways,text,facebook,etc.General​ly those are used for boyfriends and girlfriends,and we all gasp at the inhumanity. How about An 11 year marriage,where there was no single act,no crux,no discernible point or reason.but no text,no e-mail,no notice in the paper,just nothing.because the people invilved were 7000 miles apart,silence was absolutely deadly. 13 years,2
children,a whole life of UPs and of course downs,met with a deadly silence.indefensible,insur​mountable. 8 months go by,I am still as fucking clueless as I was then,of course then I put it down to stubborness,but as time has passed by,there is something else at work,and it is so negaive in nature,I cannot Speak about it.over the years people have good times and bad,people that know me,know I have always tried to keep a positive spin on shit,and until the day I die,I will never curse the mother of my children,I just wish I knew what I did to provoke such wrath


Sometimes I wonder if there is a difference if they had all died a horrific car crash,but of course I know there is a difference,although lost to me forever,at least I know they are okaY,they continue,they go on.It works vice-versa also,and I think it would be easier for them if they didn't know I carried on,surely it would be better if I didn't exist.don't take that the wrong way,I am too cowardly for anything so drastic,naturally life will soon catch up with me anyway.

Machine

I sleep in 4 hour cycles,to the minute.I could set my clocks, it is that exact.If I sleep at 10,11,12 I will wake up exactly 4 hours later. Can't sleep with the air con on,too cold,but I wake up too hot and have to cool the room down again.Once cooled down I begin my second 4hours,which again will be spot on 4 hours(unless interrupted by my alarm clock).I think I must have been replaced by a machine.

Father recalls farewell to children http://www.thisislondon.co.uk/standard/article-23969734-father-recalls-farewell-to-children.do

The End

For 8 months, I listened to the advice, and kept my head down.It did no good, things could not possibly be worse.This week, my parents were once again insulted, and ostracized, for no reason. The shit is beyond belief. I left because of the abuse so now I am far beyond the reach . No matter how many hoops we jump through, it is never enough. So it is time to finally accept defeat, there is no way back. Of course it is my boys who will suffer, and that is why I have tried every avenue possible, but 5 months ago my wife stopped speaking to me, and has not said a single word to me since. That silence as they say is louder than words. If you would like Teosdee's side of the story or find out how my kids are doing e-mail her.